Thoughts

Humans never fail in letting me down. Why is it that humans never seem to be able to get other human beings. Why does no one seems to be able to take people for who they are, without having any more expectations about the other, but feel betrayed and hurt when others thinkg that same way about them. I don't get it. People are beyond me, which is strange, while I am a human myself (obviously). I don't get why so called friends are so capeable of turning their backs on each other. It can happen in a split second. I'm sick of people asking me if I'm depressed cause I'm not half as bouncy and hyper as I used to be. No, I just grow up. I feel better in my own skin now, so I don't need to hide behind one big fake smile on my face, jumping around like a lunatic so people will like me. However, I do notice that my group of friends is slimming down, just cause I feel better. Isn't that some twisted world? Aren't friends supposed to want the best for each other, that the other feels good and happy? Really, it's beyond me how the human brain seems to work. Apparentely, I'm a different kind of human.

listening ; [ma]ria - VANESSA
mood ; cynical