Face to face with God.

After hours and hours of waiting and shit, finally a voice was heard. It was G's secretary. OSU! (laughs) It was obvious that they had learned new words like Motherfucker and stuff. Just before it started G's secretary was heard again. He told us to move our 'lazy ass' to the room cause the concert was starting in 5 minutes. He's such a nice man (laughs). In exactly 5 mintes the lights were dimmed and people became crazy. The yells were ear killing and people started stamping their feet. To be honest, I joined them not long after while having to wipe away a tear from happines. Finally it sunk in that I was going to see the man I had been adoring for more than 8 years. It was so unreal that even I, a pretty 'cold' person, couldn't help but being all emotional.

The intro of Zan began and Jun-ji came walking on. I screamed HARD cause somehow people didn't yell that much. Jun-ji was followed by Chirolyn, Chachamaru and You. It was so obvious that You and Chacha were most known by the audiance cause the screams were way louder for them. Sad thing really. However, none of the screams was as loud as the ones that Gackt himself got (obviously). I seriously thought my eardrums would pop (laughs). Thank Gackt they didn't and I screamed as well.

First I have to say, the sound people weren't doing a really good job. The mic was WAY too low, which made it hard for us to hear Gackt's voice. However, I knew the lyrics so just sang with him and enjoyed his facial expressions. The man is also breath taking, even better looking in real life than on pictures and videos. The sword in his hand made me love it even more (laughs). He did some moves making him look like a warrior and licked his lips while looking all sexy.(coughs)Enough with that annoying fangirling. Seriously, it's not like me but Gackt just does that to me. Anyhow, after ZAN Gackt stood still with his hands in the air, looking at us with big eyes while Chacha and You were doing their thing on their guitars. We screamed as if our life depended on it which made them visibly enjoy it. Gackt gave us a real 'Gackt look' and got a grin on his face. He stood so still that I swore he could've been a doll/robot.




After a while of this, Dybbuk started and the crowd went wild. I looked at the place where I would be standing if I hadn't made the decision to move upstairs and I was SO glad I wasn't there. They seemed to be getting crushed by tons of bodies. I moved my eyes back to Gackt and saw him touching himself. He slid his hand over his hips and over his inner thigh before lifting up his shirt just a little so we saw a slight piece of skin. The man beside us went wild and screamed harder than we did. Hilarious really, cause his girlfriend stood next to him (laughs). Nine Spiral began and we all raised our fists during the Lie part. It was an amazing sight and a great adrenaline rush shot through my vains. Another break began with a lot of screaming and yelling Gackto-san. I was glad he took another break cause he was so damn wobbly as if it took a lot of effort to stay straight.

Speed Master began and once I again I couldn't help but to sing with him and just stare at the stage. I watched how Chacha placed a leg on the little platform where Gackt was standing and how You and Chirolyn moved their heads at the same time with a grin on their faces. Lu;Na got started and Gackt pulled off his tie before stripping his shirt off. OMGACKT I so understood why he had won the most desireable body. He threw both pieced of clothing in the crowd and the people down there fought over them for more than three songs to get it. Such a waste of the concert if you ask me.

Anyway, eventhough I was a bit taken off guard by the sight of Gackt shirtless, I did noticed how he seemed to get some trouble breathing and staying in one spot. His feet seemed to move on it's own accord and I felt worried. Kimi Ga Matteiru Kara started and I knew that this song wasn't the best for him at that moment. The song asks a lot of effort on Gackt's part, the vocals are rather intense, and I noticed how it had it's impact on him. I can't tell you what happened during this song cause I couldn't help but to worry and pray to whoever was listening that I wouldn't have to witness him fainting. Of course Gackt wouldn't be Gackt if he wouldn't give it his all and brought up every little piece of energy he had from head to toe so he brought it off as amazing as ever. Mind Forest began, making me hope that Gackt would take the little pieces where he didn't had to sing to rest, but of course that man couldn't and started headbanging like a maniac. At the most intense part of the song he fell down on his knees, giving me goosebumps.

Ever started and we danced with him. The dance is hilarious if you ask me, but it's so cute to see him do it in front of your face. He asked us if we wanted to fuck him, which of course every one replied with YES which made him laugh. Chacha laid down during the song on the platform and humped his guitar which made me laugh out loud. Weirdo.Then it was time for one of my ultime favourites, Justified. This song is so freaking awsome. However, Gackt started getting more wobbly and You seemed to notice this. He bend down a little to look Gackt in the eyes and he seemed to be mouthing Daijoubu before Gackt gave a little nod with his head. I noticed how You didn't seem to really believe this cause he kept an eye on Gact the entire time after that. Gackt came down the little platform shakily and held himself up by the drum kit, which made tears roll down my face in frustration.

After all these years, he still hadn't learned that he should rest and eat more.After Jezus the lights got dimmed and it was time for the fanproject. We all lit up our glow sticks, giving a breath taking sight. Chacha had his hands infront of his mouth and You had big eyes watching the crowd. We all knew this project was a great succes and it also seemed to give Gackt more strength cause he was less wobbly and shakey when Flower started. At the end of the song he touched his chest and held his hand out to let us know that it had touched him. SUCCES!

Kagero started and this is such a CRYING song. I managed to keep the tears inside but I stood their motionless, not wanting to miss one note. My eyes were fixated on him and every miss stap he took made my heart miss a beat though. I couldn't wait for them going backstage and rest before the encore.Fortunally, it was after Kagero. They went backstage and the crowd started shouting Gackuto and YFC but I couldn't scream with them. Not yet. After a few minutes I couldn't hold it inside anymore so I decided to slap on the boards of the balcony as well with the rest of the people on the balcony cause it sounded awsome. I did hurt my hand that way, but I didn't really notice at that time.

It didn't took long after that for the members to come on stage again and Gackt even came running. It seemed that his energy had returned and he gave his all during the last song, Uncontrol. He headbanged, jumped, did hand movements and everything which gave the song an amazing energetic feeling. He asked us to sing with him, which the people who knew the lyrics and still had a voice (me) did. My voice was shakey but I couldn't care less. Not many people seemed to know the lyrics or had the voice to still sing with (he sure wore us down with all his SCREAM FOR ME requests) which was a bit sad but it seemed that Gackt understood or something (laughs). We screamed YFC again and Gackt just stood their once again. Enjoying the screams. It didn't seemed to end but after a while Gackt finally spoke. He asked us if we wanted him to come back. We screamed YEAH of course. He asked us a few times and then he finally answered. He said; "I promise, I promise, I fucking promise that I will come back".

Many artists say this but the intensity and the serious tone in his voice made me believe him. He asked us if that once he's back, if we will come and see him again. We of course screamed YEAH and that was it.The concert ended with a remix of Todokanai and the members walked away one by one. Only Chirolyn staid. He made us scream again, bowed and made funny faces. He threw a lot of picks and stuff in the crowd before bowing again and leaving the stage while waving at us. G's secretary was heard again and he told us it was really over and that it was time to get our shit and leave. I loved the way these 'mc's' were very rude and mean. It was amazing but sad that it was really REALLY over. Picture left is what I bought (yes, the tank top is huge ... did not know this XD)